Another Taylor Swift album, another poignant Track 5 to listen to on repeat.
After The Life of a Showgirl officially dropped at 12 a.m. ET on Friday, Swifties quickly went to work attempting to dissect the meaning behind the lyrics of each and every song on the 12-track pop extravaganza. Naturally, the album’s highly-anticipated fifth track, “Eldest Daughter,” inspired particular interest.
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Way back around the time Red came out in 2012, Swifties started to notice Taylor had a tendency to place a consistently heart-wrenching song in the fifth spot on an album. A few album eras later, she confirmed her fans were in fact onto something. “I didn’t realize I was doing this, but as I was making albums, I guess I was just kind of putting a very vulnerable, personal, honest, emotional song as Track 5,” she said on Instagram Live in 2019. “So because you noticed this, I kind of started to put the songs that were really honest, emotional, vulnerable, and personal as Track 5.”
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Previous Track fives include Red‘s quintessential breakup anthem “All Too Well,” Lover‘s candidly introspective ballad “The Archer,” and THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT‘s mournful goodbye lament “So Long, London.” See the full list below:
Taylor Swift: “Cold As You”
Fearless: “White Horse”
Speak Now: “Dear John”
Red: “All Too Well”
1989: “All You Had To Do Was Stay”
reputation: “Delicate”
Lover: “The Archer”
folklore: “my tears ricochet”
Evermore: “tolerate it”
Midnights: “You’re On Your Own, Kid”
THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT: “So Long, London”
On The Life of a Showgirl, “Eldest Daughter” seems to be a reference to a concept known as “eldest daughter syndrome” that has gained significant traction on TikTok and other social platforms in recent years. While it’s not a clinical diagnosis, eldest daughter syndrome is used to describe a widely recognized pattern in which a family’s firstborn female child is expected to shoulder outsized responsibilities and intense emotional pressures. These experiences can lead to lasting issues with perfectionism, anxiety, people-pleasing, burnout, and other mental health struggles.
Since Taylor only has one sibling, a younger brother named Austin, she is a literal eldest daughter. But the song appears to be alluding more to the role she has played as a metaphorical eldest daughter figure in the music industry and how that public persona has affected her personal relationships. “Every eldest daughter was the first lamb to the slaughter,” she sings. “So we all dressed up as wolves and we looked fire.”
However, the crux of “Eldest Daughter” seems to be a romance—likely the one with her now-fiancé Travis Kelce—in which Swift has finally been made to feel safe and doesn’t want these hangups to ever come between them. “I have been afflicted by a terminal uniqueness. I’ve been dying just from trying to seem cool,” she sings. “But I’m not a bad bitch. And this isn’t savage. But I’m never gonna let you down. I’m never gonna leave you out. So many traitors, smooth operators. But I’m never gonna break that vow. I’m never gonna leave you now, now, now.”
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She even apparently goes so far as to reference Travis’ role as the youngest child in his own family, singing, “Every youngest child felt they were raised up in the wild. But now you’re home.”
In addition to a literal profession of loyalty to Kelce, the song could also be read as a pledge of allegiance to the fans who have always stood by her and her lifelong love of music. Taylor does love a double entendre, after all.